Looking for the silver lining...

[irishblessings]

Beatrice - thanks for that perspective. I honestly hadn't thought of it that way = just way too angry.

I worry about S. He and his father used to be close. S is so angry and embarrassed and fed up with his Dad. But he is seeing a counselor and he tells me he is fine talking to her about these feelings. He says he is not ready nor willing to share his feelings with his Dad - maybe for the same reason I won't engage - why talk to crazy? I just don't want S to have regrets for lost opportunities. He did email his counselor and share the letter he got from his Dad, so I think that is a good step. S and I are doing better - that's good as well.

I need a vacation / I need money / I need laughter / I need a break!!!!