I am do have IC. I notice today, every time I receive a text or email from him, my heart starts pounding really fast and goes up to my throat and I get a sick feeling in my stomach that makes me want to throw up.

Will I ever see the light at the end of the tunnel?

I have been really good at not pursing him. I surprised myself. LOL

H: 49
W: 47
D: 6
M: 6 1/2 yrs
H: Bomb #1 6-2010
H: Bomb #2 7-2011
H: Separated: 7-11-11
Reconciling 2-2012
Separated: 1-31-15 (I asked him to move out)