Why was there no course map for this marathon?

[workinghardguy]

It's funny you should post this... just this morning my C was pressing me hard on what I wanted. If I could have anything I wanted, what was it? I started with "I want what we had back." Then I backtracked... no I don't. I want a healthy R. That showers our kids in love, that creates a stable environment for them, that helps my W and myself be better people each day. That gives us room to grow. That's what I want.

And then he pushed on if that can happen, even if my W thaws and comes around and wants to save our R. And I realized, no, it can't. Not the way things are now. Not with how I am and not with how she is. So at some point she will have to grow to have an R with me.

Where my C and I differed is whether it's better for me to remain in the R and work towards that. To be present and provide a reflective source to encourage her towards work and then, ultimately, if she never grows, make my decision then (that's my view). Or leave now and work on me, let her have her wishes, and see if it forces her to face reality (that was his counterview).