What was I an idiot? Of course there's an OM...

[workinghardguy]

Hey Just... trust me I know... I keep watching closely and at the risk of breaking good DB practices I flat out ask her a few times a week about her mental state. It's better the last few weeks and better since the bomb, but still not great.

I've had long talks with my C about what I can do. Short of having direct knowledge of immediate ideations there's not a lot. If I think she's actually going to self-harm I can throw her in the car and take her to the ER or call the police. Outside of that I can support (though she doesn't want that from me), suggest, provide information, and check in. But that's about it.

But she's an RN. She knows exactly how to hide and deflect the symptoms and signs. Trust me, I'm scared most days out of my mind. It just adds a level to this whole tragedy that is even more painful. To be locked out but have to find a way in... it's damn hard.