Things are okay. I guess I'm a little over a week into my 180/LRT and I think I'm being pretty consistent. I did give a hug after my daughter's birthday, but no "I love you". I have tried to be pleasant company, but short on words.
I need to expect good things to happen, but I have "backed off" for months at at time before, but nothing changed on his end that I could tell.
I felt a little discouraged today...I know we had feelings for each other before and we can have then again. I am so very glad that we get along well. We had dinner as a family Friday night, had lunch/birthday party with my other kids and brother on Saturday, and we had dinner tonight.
I still am hoping to see something change in his behavior. I think I have good goals. I guess my last, last resort technique is to date other men, but I have a whole lot of work to do mentally before I'll be ready for that. Honestly, I don't think I'll be wanting to date again for many more months, if not a year or more. I hate it so much and I hate the idea of him dating even worse.
I know there are lots of people here in a lot more miserable of a situation than me. I am thankful for what is right between us, but it is pretty unsatisfying, especially when I think of years and years of this.
I guess I'll give this a few more weeks and then ask for advice for what to do next, unless someone has advice before then.
