Here we go!

[alone]

Find myself back posting today. Have been around looking at posts and trying to figure things out. Things have been going well since my husband has moved back in. He has said that he is committed to out marriage and that is why he moved back in. He started staying back into our bedroom on 9-25. Since then we have been intimate more times these last few weeks then we had for the past 2 years. We have been hiking and booking some vacations together. He has been talking about our future. It seems like I have been more reserved then he has. Then today I did something that I should not have done for my own good. He is at a meeting in Las Vegas for work and I have been dreading this for awhile not trusting him to be there while I knew that she is closer to that location and it is just a drive for here. So what to I do I look at her facebook and imagine that she got to Vegas that same day as my husband. Now my head is spinning. Of course the first thing I do is call husband let him that I know she is in Vegas and what a coincidence this is. I tell him that I do not trust that he is not with her. He tells me that he did not know that she is there and that is not why he is there. He says again that he is committed to our marriage and has it not shown that he is. Says that he loves me and that he is proud of me and he has been really happy. He feels closer to me then he has in a long time. Says that I can fly there if that will make me feel better and that I can go with him on his meetings out of town until a feel better if that is what I need to do. I do not want to be the untrusting jealous wife, I want a marriage that I can trust my husband and want my husband to feel that too. So how do I deal with these feelings?