I ruined it all but want to change & make it work

[MrBond]

Specifically, how long did you talk to just your W? What were her concerns before?

So obviously if you don't need to have a woman around, you wanted her. Simple as that. Maybe it was a stupid mistake, but you did the crime. You were addicted to the OW and you continued it as your choice. Most people would have called it off after going out once.

I mean, do you have a medical condition? Have you been diagnosed with depression? Detail as best you can, your latest interactions with you W. Like what does she specifically say? How was your relationship with your W before you moved away for work?