hi guys, thanks for your comments. Today is a tough day; thinking about all the mistakes and bad decisions I have made and what I could have done differently but most importantly I am very sad about missing and being away from my children. Hard to think about anything else, especially 180s. I keep blaming and prosecuting myself and thinking that I deserve to feel as bad and sad as I can cause myself to feel; self-inflicted punishment. I am trying CBT, exercise, GAL, etc but get pulled into the darkness when its just me and my thoughts.
