new to this..

[workinghardguy]

L2L... [censored] being at work doesn't it? I know... I think the staff outside my office must think I'm either a) playing video games all day or b) working on a super-secret government project because my door is shut so much now. Really I'm just trying to process and not let them see me breakdown since I never know when it's going to hit.

Do yourself a favor and stop trying to mind read. You can't do it. Last few weeks I was doing the same thing. No comms from my W at all... but I'd see on phone records that she can text five other people during the day, just not me.

There may be someone else as well, to be honest. Men tend to not flee unless they have somewhere to flee too. But that's his loss, right?

There's nothing to say but that this [censored]. That some days are better than others and some hours are better than others. Know that tomorrow will come and that others have made it through. Some with their Rs pieced together and some without, but we make it through. Pour your energy into your daughters. Just start making a life without him and work on enjoying that life.

If he comes back to join that life... great. If not, at least you have a great life to live. You can live without him. I can live without my W. I don't enjoy the thought of starting over, of doing this again but I can do it. And I will do it for my S and for me. But take it one step at a time. make a better you and a better life.