I know how you feel. I haven't been at this as long as you have, but there are times already where I am missing a loving companion and that I wonder if it's someone else other than my W.
On the other hand, there are days too that I see her and we do something together, and it feels like it did when we first met, and I wonder what she's thinking.
I just feel that with all of the hard work we are putting into ourselves, GALing, and DBing, that we deserve a big pay off and being alone right now isn't fair.
Me: 43 W: 37 Together: 18 M: 15 D: 8 yrs old ILYBNILWY: March 2011 She Filed for D: August 2011 She moved out: Sept 1, 2011 Reconciled: May 2012 Divorce Case dropped: July 2012