It was a fri night and she came home from work and said that she didnt want to be married any more that she had been thinking about this for a while now and just doesnt feel like we can go on as a married couple. She kept saying "I love you and I care for you but I dont want to be married to you" she also kept saying that it will be ok because we have a kid together so we will always be best friends and do things together just not as a married couple. I have givin up on trying to figure out what she is really trying to deal with. She made mention of me never protecting her she also said "you never even protected me from you". She also resents me for wanting to have a kid knowing that she didnt want to.
What are the issues you are working on in you?
I am mostly focusing on the PTSD I am in C and have been since Aug. I have started going back to church and I have stopped the heavy drinking everynight. I have been DBing now for two weeks( i know I seen your signature block...LOL) I understand it will take time and I am ok with that I really just need to not see her or talk to her for a good two weeks to be able to handle how she is acting. I am looking for any TDY just to get away for a few weeks.
what's different in YOU? I actually feel like a happier person. Lost 24 pounds in about 3 weeks so I am hitting the gym hard to cut up and start feeling better physicly. I am also getting back into cycleing I miss riding in marathons. They are so peacefull just you and the bike for 50 plus myles to just think and clear your head. I can say that I have stopped mentioning anything that has to do with us working things out. I dont even say I love you unless she does.
