I know our goal is to save our M and if that can't be done then,
...well, f@ck it.
Do you think your W came to that same conclusion at some point?
OK
So you are here with a big sh!t sandwich.
Cam no matter what YOU do. or DON'T do.
You can only can only be certain of one thing.
YOURSELF.
Are you certain of that?
What has this taught you about YOU.
You are giving up because you think she doesn't value you.
Do you value you yourself?
How do you measure that? By whether your W wants to come back to yor not?
It was a waste? Are you a waste?
Cam I know it is hard when you do realize that your beloved spouse is not willing to commit to it when you are.
BUT
That is the wrong measure of success.
It is what you commit to. What you ask of yourself and endure for yourself
In the face of complete rejection. And beyond. That is when you find yourself.
Beyond someone elses choices and in the truth of your own.
Take what happened: You thought she hooked up. Then you found out she didn't.
In between those two facts that were true. Both of them. At one point. Where was Cam in the middle of that?
Who was he? I will tell you. He was the pawn in between.
Why?
Because he chose to be.
Why would you (and continue to do so) give someone the power over whether you are a waste or not?
This is hard sh!t Cam.
The only way to gain that awareness is to go through the fire of it. You can leave here because your M is over but your leaving some chips on the table my friend.
You are leaving a very valuable person behind.
Who do you think that is?
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
