What was I an idiot? Of course there's an OM...

[workinghardguy]

Thought I'd start a new thread as the last thread was getting long, and this morning probably marks a new stage in this ridiculous drama. Below is the last post from that thread:

Bad, bad morning... discovered the OM this morning. I don't know to what extent an OM. Just saw a fraction of a message. But not a message that you send someone normally. He lives four hours away. She met him end of July. She spent all weekend with him a few weeks ago (along with lots of other people). Don't know if they've ML or not. I know she's not seeing him regularly (like weekly or anything) because he's a long way away.

When I was looking at phone and text records they had stopped communicating except for the rare text message. This message I saw came from Facebook two and a half weeks ago. Didn't look like anything since.

I guess I'm not super-shocked. This was the guy I worried about. If there was any guy it was this guy. I had trusted her word that there was nothing there. Well, not really, I knew she at least had a crush or infatuation. Maybe that's become more.

Just very, very sad and hurt this morning. I don't plan to confront her. Don't plan to bring it up. Let the string play out for now I guess. I'm going to have to meditate on if the worse is true, can I forgive her and trust her again at some point. I think I can, we've all screwed up in life, but I have to find a way there.

But f*ck is this doesn't rip your heart out. When I get back from church with S she'll be here. I'll have to be Mr. PMA and "as-if". Not sure how I'm going to pull that off.