W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore.

[Snowman]

Journaling, my wife asked to half my S on Sunday because her brother is in town to see my MIL that is moving away forever and just got out of the hospital. I have no problem with my S seeing his uncle other than the fact that she wants me to give up part of a weekend day with my son that I rather not. In addition my wife is driving all the way to San Francisco with my son next weekend which is like a 12 hour drive from where I live. No that I have told thinks it is a good idea and is afraid my S will not do that well on a drive that long in one day. My S is not the quiet kid type that likes to stay still so everyone knows a drive like that will be a challenge. I don't want to fight her about it but I'm not a fan of this idea. Some many things could go wrong and she would be alone with my son in the middle of no where. What does everyone think about that.

As far as my W getting my S on Sunday I made a compromise. I'm letting her have him for the morning to see her brother but I want him back for nap time so he has time to nap and then go to my parents for Sunday dinner with the family with all his nieces and nephews. I feel this is a fair compromise considering she will have him for 4 days the next weekend driving very far away with him.

My wife texted me this morning about getting the maternity clothes for the girl she is living with today and I said come over whenever, my dad and I will be working on the deck. She never did text back and I thought it was weird she needed them today when she was coming over tomorrow anyway. Not sure what this all means.

I also got a DVD back from my W that my S watches that also had a copy of "He Just Not Into You". What is that suppose to mean?

I finished reading most of DR and I got to tell you that my wife has depression mixed with MLC. I reviewed old emails from her about our sex life and hard times. They reminded me of how tough things were and how crazy she was acting then. Our intimacy was good after the battles but it always seem to be a problem among other behaviors she showed. She was always angry or not happy, like she was depressed. She claims she was happiest when she was pregnant which was a good time of intimacy for us and her chest was exploding to full bloom. Maybe her hormones were raging and she was actually wanted sex which seems to bind the rest life together.

I still think my wife is depressed or otherwise has issues that have got worse as our time together has grown. There is to much history pointing to depression or other disorder to ignore it. My W's brother show many of the same symptoms that my MIL agrees they have as well. Anyway, I guess we will see what happens with all this and what kid of help my wife gets for herself.

I get upset about things she request or wants to do but I realize I cant control so why try or fight it. I just need to keep my cool when she comes to come get my S. Follow the LRT and it will go well, here is hoping.