I ran into my wife's brother at the store today.... I had my headphones on and felt a tap on my shoulder, turned around and it was him. I was shocked. From what I've been told everyone in her family hates me. He said he didn't have a problem with me at all. I was very upbeat and positive with him. I made small talk and walked out with him to his car.
What a damper on my day. God, I miss my wife. I'll admit it, I broke down and cried on the way home. This is where I usually get emotionally stuck. I start having imaginary conversations in my head with her. I wonder why all of this is happening. I start feeling hopeless.
I'm not going to do it this time. Yes, I'm miserable right now, but all I can do is try to look at all the positives that are happening in my world. I'm not going to deny my feelings, but that is all they are, feelings. They pass. I'm not a mindreader or a fortune teller, so I have no idea what is going on in her head or what is going to happen. I've got to stop this cycle right here, right now. Easier said than done, but I can do it. Thanks for letting me vent.
