Reading over IB's latest posts put me in a frame of thought.
Anger is okay, and needs to be expressed, but when does it cross the line into obsession? I think I am doing fine. Enjoying my life, until I go to sleep at night and my subconscious puts me through hell. I'm either furious at him; or furious at me. What I did or he did or I didn't or he didn't. I still awake at the dead hours of morning, staring at my ceiling and reviewing my past. I know this is not healthy, but how do you get it to stop? I am not consciously or purposefully going to bed with these thoughts on my mind. It is when they 'attack' me.
Other than that, things are going very well. I found the love of my life, a 2 month old Golden Retriever I have named Luca. My job is going well, got a raise with a promise of another in 3 months. Busy life with family and friends. 3 new grands expected over the next 6 months. So where does this 'dark demon' fit into the picture. I am afraid it is a sign of my own being stuck in replay. I want out! Off! Away, Whatever!
