Trust me, you are not a 'slow learner'. If this was a graded course, we'd all pray for a curve.
While I am in many respects very happy with my life at present, at night, when I turn out the lights, my mind still goes to 'movie mode' even if I am sleeping. I will awaken going over for the hundred thousandth time what and where did everything go so wrong?
I am also angry at being cheated out of what 'should have been' after all these years. All the knowing I am better off doesn't always make you FEEL better off. When I feel this way, I like to reflect that HE is feeling much the same way, also. Wondering if MY life is better than HIS. Childish, but effective.
