W is moving out.....life goes on...

[In_Shock]

hey all--- thank you SO much for thinking of me and for prayers, good thoughts, or even some voodoo at this point.

I didn't post for a couple of days. My emotions are all over the place and I am trying to figure out what is going to happen next. After W and I had a huge argument about OW's less that great qualities...(understatement, and my mistake for pointing them out..) it seemed as if we were getting along better. We kind of cleared the air - all that crap after the talk Monday night, and I was feeling better. Not ok = but not terrible. Just on a plane.

Well, this am she drops another bomb on me. We were talking about getting S a new bed b/c he still has a toddler bed and needs a new one. she said, well, that is contingent upon other things.... Turns out she is really looking at moving out and taking S asap.

I'm digesting the rest of the convo -- where she told me I just drive her crazy. That I've been doing everything around the house and she thinks it's all to get her back. (doing things around the house was one of my 180s bc MIL said W didn't feel as if I do enough. blah blah blah) SO I feel I'm f'in damned if I do--damned if I don't. Much like most LBS....it's a game we're thrust into and we don't know the rules, or if there are rules, they change midsteam with no warning.

I'm really broken today. Really broken. I'll post more specifics later, but I was checking my email and saw that some of you were checking on me. This message board is a lifesaver, and you guys, I'm sorry we're in this boat, but you're a great bunch of people to be in it with if we must go through it all. Some really strong character exhibited here.

Post more later. Gonna go play more with my beautiful boy.