I'm glad that I caught this before anybody replied. Basically, I recant a lot of my last post. I don't need any reassurance. It seems like I'm still focusing way too much on my W. I'm really getting sick of doing that. She's not in my life anymore, so why bother?
It hit me in a flash as soon as I got back to work: I really have no control over this. I can DB as best I can, but what happens happens. I can't control my W. I can't control my future. I can't control the world. So why not just let it go? I don't know why it took that long to sink in, but it just did. It felt incredibly freeing. Need to go practice the Serenity Prayer for a while. It is a good one.
Tonight, I'm planning on going out somewhere nice to eat. I deserve it. And my W is in town, so I want to be plenty out and about while she's here. Don't want her thinking that I'm just sitting around on my keester. Heck, don't want to be sitting around no matter what W thinks!
