Broken, just mirroring what 25, mach, and j3b said...
Mach mentioned something about sometimes the LBS has to hit rock bottom, too... I know that one... I didn't have to choose it, but my pity party and the position I put myself in... well, they've led me to a place that no one should have to be in... did I need to do this? No... but I certainly have learned... more than I would have were this all "easy"...
You had mentioned in your last post that you were going to get a job so you could show your W you could make it on your own steam...
I do not want to be a martyr, but I'll tell you... I am where I am because I need to prove to MYSELF that I can do thins on my own... I know I will gain a great deal of respect for myself and an appreciation for everything that I have from this point forward...