Brand new..

[learning2listen]

i am going to go buy the book.. I know that I am seeming desparate to him, he wants a strong women, that is what I was until my career took a huge financial change. There are many that think he was with me only for the money, and now that there is none and no security and he is needing to be more involved financially, he walks away? I should just be mad as heck but I am not, I am not angry at all...which I dont get? I have many things to be angry about and he is angry but I sit here wallowing in the memories of him, worrying he is moving on without me, worrying he is already interested in someone else.. etc...I know there is no magic button to get him back, its his choice, he will do what he wants, regardless of how I feel. but I worry if I dont remind him that I am here, then he will forget about us... I am sure this is normal, but it is new to me...I feel like 2 months is so long, shouldnt we have at least talked about us? Is this normal? I am not someone who believes in separation, but if it means I can hold on to some hope then I wil do it.

Me 40 H 43
m 11yrs
s 08/13/2011
d 8 d 16 (mine from prev marriage