Here were your posts from last year between April and October.

4-47-10I am suppose to go to my attorney on mon. i want to have something written up to divide our assets because my h is a spendaholic and in serious debt because of it. He asked his mother to take out a loan on her house and she is going to. His life is so unmanagable.

im feeling tempted to call him. because I get very anxious and worried about him trying to screw me financially. I cant meet with my lawyer til next Fri. His rental property is in short sale and I dont want that to effect money that I get in asset separation agreement. I picture him having fun with different woman, and I am home depressed and worried.
I often feel like I hate him.

I told h how bad he hurt us and that i don't want that foreclosure to effect money that i get, because that is all i have for the rest of my life. I want him to know how bad he hurt me and my son. i've had enough of keeping it inside.

I am almost positive that she is pregnant too. I called him and told him I knew everything.

8-26-10
I never realized how sick his family was until the affair happened. I dont know if things will ever change. He even uses people that he has working for him and doesnt pay them.

10-17-10
I went to a womans support group and met another lady going through the same situation, but she filed for d 4 mos ago.

10-10
my h is a spendaholic and i worry we are going to lose everything because of his debt.


Here you mentioned about how he doesn't pay those who work for him (shady business dealings). How you will have no money (especially when you thought he was trying to have a baby with OW); and how you went to a women's support group, when you just said there wasn't any around you. In fact, you stopped going because you said it made you feel depressed. Now mind you this was all when you were going to school anyway, so I'm assuming the financial situation is the same. This week you also said that it was the first time you let your H hear about your pain. Not true. You did that a year ago too.

So my point is. What's changed? YOu mentioned above too that you were seeing a L but a couple of months ago, you said hadn't gone yet.

So what is the truth?


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