I am scared to death to have him home on so many levels. I kind of like the way the "friendship/lover" part is going.

I never in a MILLION years would have thought that I would have felt this way. Since the bomb, I did everything wrong and then good.

Now, I feel trapped (like he did durring his A and MLC) and really don't want him back full time. Is that bad to say?

He messed with my heart and mind for too long. I don't trust him as a spouse. I enjoy him as a friend and lover. Can I ever trust him again?

The pressure on me is building.

I NOW feel like the WAS. I want him here, just not all the time. Does that make any sense to anyone?

He is my best friend...we agree that we both are each others best friend in life.

Moving to quick.....but money comes into play

me:51
H: 48
No kids together
M:14 years
seperated:Ask him to GET OUT 3/21/11
Piecing 09/14