I've been following your thread for a very long time. Since the beginning, you've been telling your husband how badly he's treating you, etc. And has that gotten him closer home? NO.
Go ahead and write those feelings down. There's nothing wrong with that. But giving it to him in my opinion, is a horrible idea.
Going back to square one. Why would he want to go back to you when you keep saying he's into "dark stuff" and continue to condemn him? Going over your posts, you haven't changed at all, so why on earth would he want to go back? You want to guilt him into coming home and if you were my wife, I'd honestly stay away. You don't have someone come home out of guilt, but out of love.
You keep condemning the OW. But she's giving him exactly what he wants. Non-judgemental love. If you don't think you're judgemental, look at what you told your son. You don't think that others have a right to an opinion, just yours.
You want to stop hurting? Fine. Then start changing.
On top of everything else, you keep complaining about how you have no money. Well where the heck is all this money coming from for your car, your H's car and your house? You complain that you have no funds, yet you asked your H for money for the house. Something doesn't smell right.
Last year you posted how you were almost destitute from no money coming in from your H. Then you complained about how he had shady business dealings and that you've thought about turning him in but didn't. And now you act like there's nothing wrong and you're fine with him getting you a car, etc.
And to top it all off, you said before that you were seeing a C, yet you write above about how you need to let things out to someone. You're contradicting yourself.
What is the truth here? Be honest. Verycrazy, 25yrsmlc and others have spent alot of time helping you out. But with all those contradictions, I really do question whether your sitch is real.
I know you're going to get angry or whatever, but how about answering those questions, then we know it's legit.
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Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
