Gary, sorry you find yourself here and glad that 2tp and rick picked up on your loose thread...
As a new registrant, posts are moderated so can take a while to show up and also, threads sometimes get lost in the chatter...
Now, first things first, your anxiety and desperation to save your M are clear... that's something that will take effort to get under control... no matter how panicked you feel, this process takes time... do your best to chill'ax...
So you've been diagnosed with PTSD and wham... you get nailed with it, again... because your W blindsided you with this... on a normal day, most LBSs understand how you feel... and we are here to help you through this...
Most of the DB elders understand that the successful DBers are the one's who have grown through this experience, regardless of the outcome of the M...
Most newbies gauge success as someone who saves their M...
So understand this... those who's M's get back on track... they are the ones who had the most patience and the most determination to grow through this... and their M's happened to get back on track and get better...
Good luck, one step at a time... dig in, read the material, do the work... it gets better...
