I have to let go. I think I'm done DBing. I'm expending way too much energy into worrying about what I'm going to say/do and what he says/does. It has been very hard to separate the emotional aspect from the practicality aspect. I need to get my head straight and begin making plans.
We're still trying to take advantage of our county's free mediation program, but I know that if we can't agree on everything in a very timely fashion, they will kick us out of the program. I'm thinking that if it comes to that, I will ask that he wait until he PCS's and I move to my hometown before he does any filing. I just don't want to be bound by our county's court system, with both of us moving so soon.
So, that's where I am. I must be a realist here, and realize that it's a crappy situation, but I need to start making moves to get my life rolling without him. For that to happen, I need to go home to my support system. I'm shooting for Christmas holidays. We'll see what happens.
