I am loosing my mind

[2thepoint]

Since no one has responded to your requests for input, I'll give it a go. If you have read DR then you know that you must avoid pursuing behavior. Any effort to connect via text, phone, email will likely backfire. As the book says, you need to become mysterious to your W. This will cause her to be curious and she will likely reach out to you. You need to continue to remain distant in order to avoid getting sucked back in to your marriage whirlpool. Until you understand what you need to do about you and then make the necessary long-term changes, you'll just end up back where you started. Keep the distance as much as possible, work on you, do your 180 stuff and see how things progress. Avoid pursuing at all cost!

Hope that helps! Good luck!