Jon, I know you mean well, but at the moment your right, I can't see it!!!!!
I had the kids again last night, I love these 2 dearly!!!
We laughed and joked together, I feel so bad about all this.
My wife called to speak to the kids, I didn't speak to her, I don't want to.
This is the first time since we have split that I truely feel that I can detach from her.
I don't have to speak to her about anything other than the kids, and even that doesn't take much for the day to day stuff.
She now has independence, and the life she "wanted", so there is no need for any contact. When she is talking to the kids on the phone, I can hear her asking about me,nothing of any importance, but little questions.
I know I should ignore it, but its hard not to pick up on everything, even all the little things.
I don't know where I am with the divorce anymore, thats all down to her and her solicitor, I'm not that bothered either!! Its a word!! She wants it, I cannot change that, so it's all about her again.
Me? I'm ok, I'm healthy, and sober. I appreciate things I have, and don't pine about things I don't I don't really want any contact with her for the time being, I now need some space for me, I need to look after me
I've put me on hold really, to try and be what she wants.
