Angel, I'm not sure I know how to tip it to my side, other than remaining calm,gal, and be less clingy, despite what he does. When I ask him.... "what is it about me, what is wrong with me?" he says.. "nothing, it's not you".
Obviously it IS me.. he has told me he wants to be in love, and have passion. He went looking for it with another woman... so something in me needs to be fixed. I don't know if I can be what he wants... I can only be me, or an improved me.
This afternoon when he came home from work I was taking a nap. Our D was over playing with friends at another house. He came and laid down by me, and we slept for awhile, and when I woke up we ML. He pretty much initiated it. We were so close, I felt so close to him. But afterwards.. he got up, gave me a peck, said ILU and off he went, and for the rest of the evening he's pretty much kept his distance.
This is what I don't understand. Before BD, he would hold me.. we would talk... he would cuddle.
I wanted us to be intimate so badly, and now that we are... I just don't know what I feel. I want the intimacy to keep the connection... if that makes sense, but I also want it to be the way it used to be.
I feel that he wants to be with me, yet he's still holding on to his feelings about being free... so there again he's conflicted, even when we ML.
