Hey TM... I feel for you and perhaps now is a great time to create that Rock'a'billy Opera you've been putting off...
I've had a few moments of deep sorrow in the last month but for me right now, even for the stumps in the road, the future looks bright...
I don't remember what it was for me, but I can concur with others who say this... you really don't recognize that "moment" when you get to that "everything's going to be OK" space...