I have mixed feelings, but I sent this:

"W,

I have been thinking a lot about your health issues and I am concerned about you. I hope everything goes well for you tomorrow.

M"

I feel very stuck tonight. The finality of everything has really been hitting hard lately; I can't stop thinking about my W and what she is doing. I know it is the worst thing I can do, but it's like some endless loop I can't stop.

H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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