Trying to schedule another mediation time is exhausting. I'm the one who is always checking with our mediator if he is available.
I mean.. I understand that he's my pastor.. but now that she has meant him and has agreed to keep using him.. I feel that she can reach out to see when he is available.
Sorry I'm trying to be loving.. but I don't want this D. I feel like I'm doing the coordinating and that I am playing the same role I always play in our r. One that managed the bills, took care of things.
I took over the bills last year because she kept forgetting to pay stuff.
It's not a role that I wanted to play in the r.. at least not to that extent. Now I'm still playing it and we're separated.
Urgh... help please?
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
