alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

so this is just for the sake of venting...its taking awhile for my post to get on the board since I am new so feed back is delayed. I had a horrible night last night and handled everything wrong, I am pushing him farther and farther away but woke up this morning and decided I was going to have to suck it up if I want a chance at stopping this!..still trying to decide what to do about filing papers...im thinking I will just wait but he brings it up every chance he gets so Im on a short timeline. Today is the first day we have not text back and forth argueing about what he wants to do...I was an idiot last night and started something out of nothing but did call and leave him a voice mail saying i was sorry, that was wrong of me and it wont happen again before I went to bed. And today is a new beginning...he sent a text saying he appreciated the message and Im leaving it at that. I will not contact him this week and see were it goes, just not sure how to handle the preasure when he starts in about the papers and he wants this over asap...its so painfull to hear someone you spent 18 yrs with speak that way. He has never been so cold, our relationship has always been him telling me he didnt want to lose his family and would do anything to keep it...I dont even know how to react to this person who says "Im happy now and Im not willing to risk that by working on things with you, even if it means I have to leave my son"....??????
so today is the first day of getting back to me!!...have a interview for an intership ive been trying to get at 4pm and am hopeing for some good news today!!!..then Im going to make dinner and spend some time with my boys