i will support my sons decision. im was just worried he might not find work. he could never get in NYU but there is a college near us that has a good program for film but they only take 2500 applicants out of 16,000 so i dont know if he will get in. he wants to stay home but there are no other colleges in this area that have a good program for that. Have you checked a school there called "School of Visual Arts" (or similar)? It has a good reputation and it's considered a great value b/c it's respected while still being affordable.
I have been feeling down lately. i dont have much support with separation situation. i know i should join a group but i get panic attacks in that situation, but i know i should. i am really worried about losing my house if h and ow are planning there future.
I don't know what to say here. The panic attacks are not going to go away by themselves. Either you overcome them or you medicate for them, but you cannot let them control you so much, imo.
As for losing property--on one hand I DO believe your h is planning a life with OW...OTOH that doesn't mean you couldn't change things but YOU would have to CHANGE THINGS...as vc says.
If your efforts are fruitless then yes, protect yourself. But you know that already and we've been over it.
Glad you are doing some GAL things. I forced myself to sign up for one new seminar or class or join one club or do one activity that was new and involved others...at least monthly.
Eventually, I had signed up for a lot and was BUSY... I GAL LIKE A MANIAC and I posted about that to you before. I don't think your depression will signficantly or sustainably lift without you pushing yourself OUT there.
Sometimes we want to "feel like it" inside, BEFORE we go out of our comfort zones...but that's not usually how it works.
Usually we have to just make ourselves go out there and JOIN and INCLUDE ourselves in others lives, and we reach out and we meet and we connect and then...we are not alone.
We have GAL! Sometimes you have to make things happen externally to make us happy internally. (Outside in) Kind of like how some actors do their work to access an unavailable emotion...
(VC - that's a Brad Pitt tip!!Yeah, that's right. Go watch Thelma and Louise and watch HIM!)
they go dancing to feel up and happy or learn to salsa to get out of their heads and into their bodies, ..a lot of this is about overcoming fears. Our son is so NOT inhibited now, when it comes to dancing or moving whereas he was such a typical adolescent male before training.
RM, you have a lot of those things...fears. Too many for a happy soul. When you operate in fear, you are not operating in faith.
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M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
