alcoholic H decided he wants D

[imthemom]

Thank you so much for the support. I have been feeling very alone in all of this and was so excited i finally got some replies. Unfortunatly, since my post he did get papers and things have gone into hyperdrive...he is in such a rush it is making me panic...ive blown it several times by trying to get him to talk to me. This has all been so sudden..i cant get him to tell me why the sudden change. He cant seem to stand the thought of me which is unbelievably painfull. He goes from being cooperative and saying he just wants it to be fair and easy to being hateful and cruel and blaming me saying maybe if you had been like this 2 yrs ago (while he was still drinking???) This could have been avoided....ive been reading DR but theres no advice in there about how to handle the actual filing of papers...he doesnt want to help me out alot, we are barely getting by, so i feel like i should just file, but every night im crying myself to sleep trying to figure out how it got to this and what i can do to stop it...18 yrs is a long time..i feel like ive lost my whole life...