My visit with my family was pretty good, even though my dad started drinking heavily toward the end. He's a good guy, but his drinking has always been a problem. He will not stop for any reason. I have already accepted that he will probably drink himself into the grave. My little sister and I talked about it over the phone.
I came back home yesterday. At two points during the day, I caught myself overthinking in the form of out-loud prayer. Prayer is great, but not if you're using it as an excuse to negatively overthink your life. Instead of feeling better, it just made me feel worse. I re-read the book today by Susan Nolen-Hoeksema in order to remind me why I don't want to do that anymore. It truly is an addiction of the mind that I want to kick. It has only led to bad things for years.
My W is coming into town this weekend. I'm nervous because I don't know what to expect. The last communication that I got from her was that nasty reply to my "darkness" e-mail. Since then, nothing. Unfortunately, this will likely turn out to be a situation where I just have to play it by ear -- I'm guessing that it's a pretty typical DB-er manuever.
However, I am planning on keeping any chit-chat extremely light and trying to keep her visit focused on seeing the rabbit. I will not let her manipulate this visit into something that I don't want it to be. Also, I will try to avoid arguing at all if possible, but I fear that it may come to that. She might try sticking to her tactic of demanding more money out of me, and I want to make it clear that I don't owe her anything else.
