No word from him yesterday (Monday) or day before. On Saturday we had a bit of a discussion. I complained about him letting our daughter get too sleepy--going to bed at midnight on her overnight with him. He complained about me letting her get too hungry. I told him I was going to stop pursuing him and I'm sorry he was so uncomfortable when I forced him to spend 20 minutes with me Friday night. I asked if we were "good" and he said "yes". I told him I wasn't going to pull out of the relationship, but was going to jut stop pursuing. I told him that on Monday if he wants to see us (he has been taking us out to supper), he needs to call me around mid-day or lunch or whatever. Sometimes he just decides to skip and doesn't let us know, and I feel annoyed because I could have made other plans. Last week I called him around 4 saying I'm just confirming that he didn't have plans to see us, and he said, no, he wanted to meet us. I told him since I hadn't heard anything, I thought he wanted to skip. I think I ended up meeting him anyway.

It is not unusual for him to not call. We almost never talk on the phone unless he is making some scheduling arrangements or something, or unless I have called HIM. Usually, I try to check in or let him know what our day is like, or if our daughter does or says something cute or noteworthy.

I did not call him Sunday. I did not call him Monday. I did feel the urge to send him a text (She was saying last night that she wanted to see you), but I didn't push "send", I saved it as a draft. No word at all on Monday.

I will see him tonight around 8 when I pick up our daughter for the night (she has preschool, he picks her up and spends a couple of hours with her and feeds her supper on Tues and Thurs).

I plan on looking nice and being "bubbly". I will probably see him just for 3 or 4 minutes as we are doing the exchange. I will smile and be happy.

I need to practice being "mysterious". I am way too open and honest and my therapist says I need to make him wonder sometimes. Let him ask me questions and be evasive (as he is). He did ask me a couple of weeks ago if I was still in contact with other men.

I am in dire financial straits and went today to seek help to pay my electric bill. I wish so much I had the money for the KLA, but I think I'll tag along on the online group if they'll let me.