Finding me again on the yellow brick road

[angel61]

Thank you YBR.

I, too have been feeling the regrets.... because I do see how much my reacting to the sitch, my pity parties, set me back quite aways.

Tell us more about yourself - I am interested in what you feel made your sitch turn around. Did you ever get around to GALing? When did you know that you had truly forgiven your H?

I am at that point where my H has gotten over wanting to be with OW and has realized that he cannot throw away his life, his family. He has decided to stay but along with it is the feeling of being stuck, because his values are telling him to stay even if he still has that longing for freedom. The last time we talked he still says that he does not feel love returning, and he does not actively want to work on the M. I get the sense that he wants his feelings for me to come naturally, not as a result of being forced by something. he does not recognize love as a choice.

However, life seems to grow more normal everyday.

The upside is that I no longer feel the fear of being abandoned. As a result, I feel more bold in GALing, but also it crosses my mind that it might be too late to make an impact. But since it is for me anyway, and not for him, I guess it doesn't really matter, what matters is that I live my life to the fullest.