YBR, I so appreciate that you wrote this. I've been feeling this way too myself lately, regretful that I "wasted" so much time thinking I could change anything in his mind... and my XH and I are SO not reconciled! But I'm really happy alone..something I never thought I'd ever say.
I think it's lovely that you came back to say all of this. People said it to me when I began with all this, but I guess I didn't believe them. Perhaps the more people who say all of this, the better chance that newbies will take heed and take care of themselves first and foremost.
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying