W is moving out.....life goes on...

[In_Shock]

Well SH!T -- I need 2 X4 --- 25? anyone>?

My mouth. W was really late tonight coming home - had S out past his bedtime... when she got home somehow I managed to tell her what I learned today about OW. Of course, not a smart thing, but my GOD I am angry, hurt, sad, grieving, lonely, and yes, jealous. I am HUMAN and it came out. She is pretty mad at me--- u know, kill the messenger.

I know, I screwed up. I told her --- this IS the TRUTH -- that I am concerned and because I do care, i had to share this info. Of course she said SHE has NEVER seen these things in OW. She (OW) is the 'most down to earth person i've ever met." GAG.

Oh, and she did say that it's funny, that I actually have those attributes....(I kinda knew that was coming. the whole arrogant, ego thing about work.....) DAMN IT. Why do our MOUTHS say dumb things?????

SO now what????? Do I apologize? Leave it alone? *I can try*
I feel like I had one of those moments where I just couldn't control myself. Not sleeping well/enough, tired, emotinally on edge, and then she was late, with S and I KNEW out with OW.

I'm prepared this time--- please hit me. I need some help!!!! OMG I'm just so sad and don't want to lose this M. I've done pretty good overall, but I guess I'm feeling kind of black and white right now. *myopic thinking is something I'm working on ridding myself of too.....

HELP!