Vent all you want!!!
There are many people here who have already walked a mile in your shoes and have lived to tell the tale.
Some of us have divorced, reconcilled and remarried our WAS.
Some of us have divorced and found someone new.
Some of us have reconcilled.
Some of us love being single and have created wonderful new lives.
Not one of them is a failure!!!
Hang in there IB it just takes time and patience.