Looking for the silver lining...

[irishblessings]

I am struggling. I miss my XH. I miss my old relationship - my friendship - the man I loved for most of my life. I read about all of these successes - people who achieve these great new lives. I feel like I am stuck in spinster mode. I know I am early in this but it is taking its toll. Within a year my X left, had OW, divorced me and has made zero effort to have any contact with me. This is after 30 years together, 3 amazing kids, and truly great memories.

I know I need a 2x4 - feeling sorry for myself. Reading too much about reconciliation or Xs returning. Should be thinking about what I want my life to be like now that it is not going to be what I wanted it to be.

I got it bad! Sorry - but so glad to have some place to purge! Thanks for listening!