Well I've had a fairly quiet stree free weekend!!!!! Hoorah!!!!

I had the kids on Friday night, all was good, no issues.

Took them home on Saturday then went home myself

As I was cleaning my place my wife called me, again it started as a nothing call, 1hr later we are still talking!!!
Again, it was all about the hurt and the past etc, but I turned it around and started to talk about the good times, how much in love we were, how good it was when the kids were born, etc.

She agreed totally, and even said that she has never regreted 1 minute of us being together, but then did bring up the hrt again, I just listened and apologised again.

I went out with a good friend on Saturday and had some real laughs, made me think its time to move on.

Went and got my son on Sunday morning for football, wife came to the door, all chatty and friendly, we spoke for a while, I told her about the night before and we laughed, then I left with my son.

After football, I took him home, wife came out again, and was smiling and waving to me, spoke briefly and I left again.

So, I get home and I'm laid on the bed chilling watching tv, this is a benefit of living alone!!!!
I gets a call off an work colleague, a female work colleague!!
She is aware of my situation, I've spoke to her about it, I've worked with her for about 8years, and we have grown close.
She said that she is driving to her parents to visit, and is passing close to my town, did I fancy meeting up for a drink, I haven't seen her for a few months so agreed.

Then my wife starts to call, I got about 6-7 calls off my wife, they were all nothing calls, and everyone was friendly, but I felt she just wanted to talk to me?
It started about kids school stuff, to uniforms, to them messing about for her, to Xmas presents, all nothing really, but I could tell she just wanted to chat, I didn't push the conversations, and ended each call friendly.

She called again about something else,but it was close to when I was going out, so I had to end the call by saying I was going out, she was fine and we put the phone down.

The girl I work with, is 10 years younger than me, and very attractive, I think if I had been single something would have happened between us, but I wasn't and it didn't!!!

So we go to a local bar and order some food.
Just as I'm about to sit down, I notice my wife's nephew at a table eating!!!!
He could'nt help but notice me!!!!
We exchanged hi's, how's things!! then i sit down, talk about awkward!!!!! haha

So me and the girl are talking, she is having a few problems with her boyfriend, etc, we talk about work, we talk about me, my kids etc, all really nice, and i admit I enjoy the company of a woman, and even better a very atractive woman, even though thats shallow!!!

I notice my wife nephew finishes his meal and is leaving, but, he come out of his way to talk, we talked about my kids, how they were, etc, his job, etc, all good then he leaves.

This is a good guy, he's a lot younger than me,but we always got on really well.
When he started a DJ career he borrowed a load od old CD's I had when he was doing Old School nights, so we always were friendly.

He's totally aware of my situation, so I expect something will be said and my wife will find out, but what??
I was having a meal with an attractive woman??
So what!!!!

We end our meal and she leave, I think there could be something there if I want to pursue it, but I need to think about that!!!!

So I get home, within 5 minutes, wife calls me!!!
She had been phoning me while I was out and was worried!!!!

I just said I had just got home and had left my mobile at home, again it was nothing important??

I stayed home the rest of the night and watched TV.

So it was a quiet weekend but again lots of questions raised!!

My wife wants a split, she has pushed it and has OM, although he's away now, but she wants a maintain close contact

We speak for hours on the phone, in fact we probably speak more now than we did when we lived together?

We spoke on Saturday about my drinking, my AA meetings, and the future, she was all positive and spoke about my changes, how the kids loved the new me, but what she did say was that she had to leave for me to make these changes, again I agreed.

She even mentioned about when I said that we would get back together in the future, she said that she didn't want to think about the future for now, lets just get the house settled, lets get on as friends, and then who knows what could happen?

I feel that although she is determined on divorce, be that through pride, or whatever, she still has feelings for me, and maybe some doubts also??

What will be, will be

For now I can only look after me and the kids when we are together.