Why was there no course map for this marathon?

[jbnati]

My old thread once again has exceeded 100 posts. Thanks everyone for reading and providing feedback! I appreciate every one of you!

Here are the links to the old threads:
Continuous Confusion
Trying to love my WAW from a distance
Trying to love my WAW from a distance II
Trying to love my WAW from a distance III
It's a marathon, but where are the mile markers?
Still in the marathon - am I going the right way?
Marathon continues. It is me or is it all uphill?
Where is this marathon leading me anyway?
Still in the marathon - did I miss a turn?
Marathon continues. Where we going, anyway?
Why did I sign up for this marathon, again?

This relentless marathon continues. Who knows where it's going? Like I've said before, I would have never imagined I would've still been here at this time. Tomorrow will mark 8 months after bomb #2. Two days ago was 5 months after my W moved out. When I first started this journey, it felt a lot more like a sprint or 5K at best.

This "marathon" can be very exhausting, even frustrating at times. On the other hand, it has been a great opportunity for personal growth. I've made a lot of new friends along the way. I've done a lot of things I'm not sure I ever would have done. I've grown closer to God. I've grown closer to my S. I am now motivated to become my best possible self.