Hi, rysmom. Yeah, me too, I love to play basketball. We have a goal set up, and I told my H I was going to start playing again. I did though love to go to my S's basketball games and karate tournaments. I have to multi task, I can't just sit and watch tv. I have quite a collection of religious books. Love love love to read. History and religion. Have you ever read Francine Rivers' books? My favorite was And the Shofar Blew. And I am going to get A Lineage of Grace sometime.
Well, it's great your H is going to buy you a car. Could you ask him to go with you to pick it out? It would be some needed contact between you to. You have to do something if you want him to see you in a different, more positive light. I really understand your fear, it's your move to make when or if you feel it's time. I would really like to see you try to open contact with your H, so you will know if there's still something there somewhere. It may be the way to help your H "wake up" to see what could be. I don't think he did anything to crush your hopes, he is living with her the way you feel he should be living with you. If you want to have hope for the future, you have to help it along with all you've learned from DB. And you can have peace of mind when you are doing the right thing, whatever others are doing.
I hope you and your S had fun in NYC. I guess it's old hat to y'all to go there, though. Next time, tell me, so I can look at the Times Square Cam, and you can wave at me! My niece loves NYC and wants to go back.
