I like the yankees. im not much of a spectator i like to participate. i only watch the religeous channels and tennis. i dont watch much tv or movies though , my son says i have ADD lol, cuz i cant sit still too long. ive been like that a long time. i do know most of the rules of the games though. I have not found out an alternative yet. i am still paralyzed with fear about making a legal move. i know i have to though. h text me yesterday and said he give me $ to buy the used car to go look at it and he will go do the deal for me, which is nice. Son and i went into NYC to look at a college and h said be careful today in his text to me. he took son out today and they went to gym and then over to his mothers for a cook out, ow was there son said, that still breaks my heart. when i think maybe h is waking up he does something to crush my hopes. i was feeling very down today. yesterday i was feeling so hopeful and happy about the future. i wish i always had peace of mind like that.
