Another crisis.....but H opening up now

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Oh the dressing sexy part_ I have done all that, right after I started losing weight I started really noticing my appearance. I threw away all my matronly clothes, and made sure I look good and YOUNG everyday. Everyone at work notices , and I even had a 32 y/o co-worker running after me- and he was so shocked when I told him I was old enough to be his mom.... he thought I was in my mid- thirties (I'll be 50 this month!) I have a fashionista 12 y/o helping me, I now wear size 8 jeans (from a size 14), have no wrinkles (except for my neck, hate that area), and lost a total of 35 lbs.

Ok, my H did noticed that already, and I think it was part of our earlier increased physical attraction to each other in the first year after bomb. Much like a prolonged break-up sex kind of thing - the fear that we might not do this again....and i did notice that for both of us, it had some sort of desperate quality to it... which actually made it sort of bitter sweet and even more memorable....

Funny but when he decided that he was staying, even when he did not tell me yet, but I knew and felt the turnaround, its as if we lost that urgency to be physical.....as if we could sit back and relax because now we know we have all the time in the world.

But I still will keep up the looking good thing. I am lazier now with the gym, so thats something I need to consciously keep up, but I do love shopping and clothes and beautiful shoes (I have more than 50 pairs, mostly sexy high heels, love cute undies and sleepwear, sunglasses, purses - you name it!)

H also now loves shopping, which he never did before his MLC! Actually, when we go out, lots of people compliment us on being a good looking family.... if they only knew what troubles we keep beneath the "glamour and smiles".