Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

no, not snowing just yet.. Thank God.

I'm doing pretty good now.. I've made lots of progress since it all started.. Really it all became easier when I realized that he won't come back to me and started accepting facts.. It is what it is and there is nothing I can do about it, really.

I guess there is always some hope hiding somewhere, but for the most part I got myself together. Every so often Id have tears streaming down my face while driving.. Wouldn't really call it crying, as I cried in the beginning.. Doesn't last long, I'm able to wipe the tears away and carry on..

Now with moving date getting closer though it happens more often. I know for a fact I will lose it when I move.. Im trying to prepare myself not to, but I know I'll have a really hard time.

To this day I have a hard time believing that relationships end this way.

Just today I heard him saying to a friend that he wants a baby and he told me not long ago that ow said shell have a baby with him.. I'm not sure if it's for real, the whole situation is just too weird to be true.. If it is I might as well forget him forever. But then.. What 22 year old would have a baby with someone they met 4 months ago.. The girl is kind of odd though, I would not be surprised if she did.

Sometimes he'd try talking about her, only good things.. She is perfect. She's beautiful, intelligent, smart.. I mean shes really all that...

I try to brush it off- can't recognize that person talking to me.. Not appreciating me at all.. I hope he'd at least miss me when ive moved.. Think I should go no contact once I moved to give him time to miss me, but then again, it's not like he cries over me, he's on the phone with ow all the time, for all I know she can move here right after I leave and he just picks up with his new life as if I never happened.

He already asked yesterday if he could take the dog on the weekends. I said he couldn't, he can come to visit sometimes, but I don't really want him visiting.. I think no contact would be best. I told him to get a new dog to go with his new girlfriend..