Nothstar, thank you for your concern. Today is not better. Im really having a major breakdown. Im listening and hearing everything that is being said on here but my heart is so broken. I feel I have failed in so many ways.
Im really scared mainly of the unknown.
A friend of mine told me lastnight that I dont want to be married to a man like my H. That how could I ever take him back because of what he has done. I know she is right because of the facts of our relationship but my heart feels differently. I dont know if that makes sense but thats how I can explain it.
I feel so much guilt. That I didnt do enough or love H or show my love for H enough thats why he strayed.
I do know that he rarely told me when anything was bothering him or if he didnt like something in our M. Rarely in almost 30 years. He kept everything in. He avoided conflict. I on the other hand would express my opinion and/or give a cold shoulder for awhile. I feel so much guilt.
Anyway...thanks for asking how I am. I hope you are well.
