Back home - but for how long?

[NYCPeter]

W came home at 4:30 and slept in the other room.

She suggested we take the dog for a walk and have a chat.
She told me she can't do this anymore, that she can't sleep in the same bed as me and that she doesn't want to come home because of me - not because she wants to stay out but that she doesn't want to be with me.

She told me that she was going to talk to the L this week and finalize the next steps. She said she warned me that this would happen if I came back - she wanted a seperation and I didn't allow for that to happen and then moved back to bed as if nothing had happened.

I backslid - I told her she was surrounding herself with people who were negetive about our M and that there are more positives to staying together than there are negetives. I reiterated I wanted to give this until the end of the year as "man and wife" with mutual respect and to see what happens then. She said she's been unhappy for years and that there is no point.

I didn't get angry - I didn't get emotional - I guess we now need to start working on the formalities of all of this.